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Forgotten


Stress over work is seriously nothing new. 

I feel like the time itself could swallow me while I go anxious on just thinking whether my plans would work and finally ended up procrastinating. 

The laptop is the devil. 
The room is the devil. 
The lighting is the devil. 
The table is the devil. 
The heating is the devil.

I remember telling myself, 
"Owh I have a week. That's more days than the previous test." 

And I swear there was a small voice in me saying, 
"We'll go to the library and study our butts off!" 

And another voice said, 
"The weather is so bad, we'll just stay at home and study." 

(...)

We ALL know home and study doesn't go well for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope I studied well for this. Owh God, crying won't even help. (Which is why I haven't! Pat in the back.)


While 'studying', the usual OCD for Facebook comes now and then. Happily scrolling down looking for updates that I KNEW wouldn't amuse me at all in the first place. When suddenly, I saw this name. The name I haven't even thought of, heard of, BOTHERED of for years. And I saw it. It wasn't even the owner's profile, it was just a mention. It's there. The name is there on Facebook.

I have to admit though there were a few mentions here and there over the second half of the year because of another kind of OCD person that really resembles her here. *Oops, did I let you guys know it's a HER? Sangat bimbo aku nih.* Being a photostat machine and a copy cat. But that's about it.

It disappeared from our lives (most of my close friends') because it chose to. For various stupid and idiotic reasons that only movie producers or novel writers can think of (and make it logically acceptable), making stupid decisions, irrelevant and nonsense excuses for God knows what, that I must confess, hurt me terribly considering how close we were before. 

However I must confess again, that it lasted only for a nanosecond before a feeling of DISGUST overwhelmed me. And till then, not one person would even mention the name.

"Owh tak tau lah apa jadi dengan dia."
"I don't even know or care dia hidup lagi ke tak."

Those are the usual answers given by friends when asked of its roundabouts. It could sound harsh to you, but it is up to that extent. And the existence of it is slowly erased from our minds.

If no one knows what I'm talking about, that's uber-ly good.

If anyone of you reading knows what I'm talking about, you might be thinking any of these;

"Referring to the person as 'it' sangatlah kejam, very inhumane and immature."
"I agree to every single word you say and please just forget about this 'it'!"
"OMG IT'S ALIVE??"

Or any other responses.

The hatred I have for it now is obviously gone as I can't really convey it into my writing successfully. Obviously because I wouldn't want to waste another Joule of my energy on hating it. I might as well just accept the fact, move on, give her what she wants and just get lost. Right?

And I don't think it would hurt me if this reaches to the concerned party, because I'm just voicing out the obvious of what has been happening for the last fucking 4 years and that 99% of my friends actually think of the same thing.

If one should feel sorry, it shouldn't be me.

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My neck is my Limit


You know the image when cartoons get mad, their red blood come up to their neck, and when it goes further, 'that's it!'. That's me now.

I need to calm down now.

Ada la makhluk Allah ni, setakat ni telah menyusahkan almost everyone I know. Kalau tak menyusahkan, then meluatkan. I almost got kick out of my own flat because of dia. I have to pay hundreds because of dia. It's been almost a year I live here with trust etc, and now dah disrupted. 

WTF weyh????!!!!

I can't type dah. Nak tulis kat sini pun pointless. 

Dear dia, please watch it, or you may see me in your own dreaming world. Jangan pikir konon you lepak with them, you're all that jugak, sama macam mereka. Truth is you're not. You're a really weird person.

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Parfume


My favourite Be Delicious is finished. 

After... 2 years? 3 years? Don't remember.


Sigh... You will be remembered.

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TGIF? IFA?

TGIF!! Thank God it's Friday!!!!


Yeah right.

More like IFA. "It's Friday?? Already?!"


Please don't tell me I'm the only one saying that. This isn't even the first Friday I announced to myself on my 'upmost depression' of IFA.

The week after Easter break passed by in a blink of an eye. Firstly, all our lab and class schedules were practically cancelled. There was just this one feedback on our essay (which I got 1st grade, unexpectedly, coming from an essay. *Smug smug*). And so I spent my days in the LIBRARY. Told you I'd be studying and working like a nerd secretary.

But still. IFA!! I feel like I didn't even study much for my exam! 

I'M FREAKING OUT!!!! AND NOW I'M STARTING TO GET ALL THIS CRAVES!!! Sabar Imi, sabar. Sabar tu half of Iman. 50 plus days je lagi till you get to eat at Chilli's, Kenny Roger's, Kopitiam, Nasi Ayam Tesco, Mummy's cooking! Haish, makan je ingat. Jumpa family tak ingat ke.


By the way, I realise I have been losing weight the past few weeks. This is PROVEN! My Evisu skinny jeans gave me space! HAHAHA. But apparently, last three days suddenly rasa ketat sikit. Why?! Not like my appetite was that much different! Wait, my appetite definitely changes, but it's the INPUT that counts. Not the desire, the dire needs. Hmmmmm. What ever it is, I'm glad I didn't sell my beloved jeans on Ebay. But I bet after this year's summer, I'll be thinking of the exact same thought yet again. Gwenchana, we learn from experience. ; )


IFA!!! Let's continue studying. I didn't sleep last night, so minta maaf ya. 


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Shopping!


I made a call to my telephone banking. To get my balance. Wasn't outstandingly happy. 

BUT WHAT THE HECK! I HAVEN'T SHOPPED SINCE NEW YEAR'S SALE!!

Originally wanted to get me a pair of boots and a pair of flats. However, things never get into hand when it comes to Buchanan Street.

Singgah ZARA and got three nice tops. Although I don't really need any more tops sebab almari pun dah tak muat dah. I use one compartment of my book shelf for my clothes that I can't hang in my closet yang dah cukup besar. One organic cotton top that's for a good cause that says "MEOW". Another with a free cotton vest attached to it, thought they were sewn together. But they weren't! So I can wear the vest with any other top. And another that says, "Don't Speak what you Don't Understand". Don't tell me its crap! (In denial)

Then went to MANGO and got a seven quarter black pants. So that I can wear them when I get back to Malaysia. Tak leh pakai shorts, tak baik. Yes Mummy, you would be glad I bought that! Hehehehehe and I don't have any bottom to wear kat Malaysia anyway. Skinny jeans don't go with hot weather. Go to hell la "biar derita asal jelita" pun.

And then went to Fraser's to continue my shoe hunt. Semua yang lawa mesti kulit babi. Up to the point where I know how kulit babi shoes smell like. That's how bad it was, if it's bad in the first place. So instead, I got a purple Ted Baker purse yang lawa and surprisingly murah! I was looking for a good purse since December! Didn't know it would find its way to me NOW. Alhamdulillah. Hehehe! I AM SOOOO THRILLED WITH MY CATCH!

Tomorrow, I will go get the Jason Mraz hat from Urban Outfitters. YES! Jason Mraz has done me good. I'll see you soon. Yes yes.

I'm so glad. Haiiihhhh. Continue study. Thank you.

p/s: My essay test went great! Except I only mentioned central nervous system and not specifically central imidazoline. How could I not remember when I have my name, Imi on it. Other than that, alhamdulillah semua yang di-study, semua keluar. *Diuretics tak keluar. And whyyy la I'm telling this?


Thank you for the company. I really enjoyed it. ; )

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Electrified


Yo ma mann spidermann. Ok poyo.

Tough tough week! Had my practical last Friday, managed to complete two prescriptions in 2 hours, alhamdulillah. But not really confident on their quality. Buat pun cincai boncai. Haiihhh. Hopefully it'll turn out well. Had to do a suspension at first, and then an ointment. Tuhan sahaja tahu betapa penatnya tangan dan mental sewaktu itu. After that, managed to finish my 3,300 words essay! Whippee!

Currently stressing with class tests and reports. Classes dah kurang sikit, so I can somehow concentrate on studying past chapters. This Thursday I'll be having a Drugs and Disease class test. Essay test! I can't remember all the drugs for goodness sake! Tolonglah.


I was hungry just now and wanted to fry some eggs and toast a couple of bread. Unfortunately for me, the toaster broke, and managed to black out three quarter of the flat. I know! Why did it not affect the whole flat! So it was only my bathroom, the dining room and Chris's room that was alright. Luckily it was only 4pm, which means Chris would be back in 2 hours time. Sementara tu carik la fuse box, nak tolak tapi tak leh tolak pun! Chiiiissss.

Then my laptop died. GOOD! All my work in there ntah hidup ke tak. It started to get dark so I switched on the lights in the dining room and lit up candles in my room. Tak pasal-pasal romantic. Which made me feel ultimately sleepy. Aish! Thank goodness Chris was right on time and managed to get all the lights back on. I still blame the toaster. Maybe because I dropped cheese in it. Hehe


Did I mention I went to see JLS on Sunday night?!?! Oh I didn't. Jodoh temukan saya dan JLS. Oh my weren't they smoking hot!!!! I tried to control myself to not shout like a crazy fangirl. Please pat me on the back because I was successful! Hehe I was less than 5 meters away from them! OHMYGOD! My arm ached for recording videos of ALL their performances. They are HOT, they are GOOD SINGERS, what else what else. Owh tak boleh nak cakap apa dah. I promise I'll put up the video/photos later alright.


JLS triggered something. I became bored of my hair after I saw them. Don't ask why! It IS boring. Long, straight, boring. I always wanted to have long hair. And I'm quite proud of myself having it this long. *Smug* And taking care of this length hasn't been a hastle. Not yet, and not till forever I hope. 

I can't have short hair. It'll make me look fat, with an ass bigger than it already is, even if short hair looks so cool on people. I don't think I can pull it off. And long hair looks better on me, majority voted. And when I do cut my hair, I will start complaining if it doesn't look good and someone would get sick of hearing this. Yes, I admit!


Have you heard of this airline ****air, will be charging for toilet entries?? Crazy right? They even said they'll charge for anything that's possible of charging. CRAZY. Orang lain boleh je survive. IDIOT.


Missing home right now. Hope things are better. Still haven't heard from him myself. Wonder what and more importantly HOW he'll tell me. Tak call-call lagi sebab my credit dah finish, and I'm busy to go and top up. Anak useless tak? Haiihh I feel so bad for not caring enough. It's fine. 85 more days! OMG, which reminds me. Exam's timetables are out! Tak tengok pun lagi! AAGH I hate this. Not prepared for ANY of the subjects. Nak nangis! Wish I can be as hardworking as you both. And yea, TAKE CARE WILL YOU!


Let's go! Let's go!


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Owh, Yes!


Jeng jeng jeng.. JENG!

The most wanted dessert by far, (not boasting or anything, it has been asked for many times by a few sweet tooth-s. *Smug*)

Sharing is caring yaww. So here's the recipe:


CHOCOLATE AND HAZELNUT MOUSSE (serves 12 cravers)

The mousse contains: (Ni terlampau banyak buat label for ubat-ubatan ni.)
300g milk chocolate, chopped (Cadbury is the easiest. But Hershey's would be nice too!)
3 eggs, room temperature, yolk seperated
2 tablespoons caster sugar
1 cup thickened cream (I use Tesco's double cream)
1/3 cup roasted hazelnuts, finely chopped (frankly, I never do. Haha bulky ones are nice for me)

Methodology: (Sah-sah banyak sangat buat ubat-ubatan (=,='))
1. Place milk chocolate in bowl. Microwave, uncovered on medium for 1 to 2 minutes, stirring every 30 seconds. Set aside to cool for approx. 5 minutes.
2. Add egg yolks to chocolate.
3. Beat egg whites until soft peaks form. Sprinkle sugar. Beat until thick and glossy. Fold half egg mixture into chocolate until combined. Fold in remaining.
4. Whip cream until soft peaks form. Fold cream and hazelnuts into chocolate mixture. Serve refrigerated separately in nice, small bowls. (minimun 4 hours)
5. Decorate with strawberries, cherries, blackberries, green white chocolate strips, cocoa powder, ANYTHING! 

In bimbo style, "Chocolate, is the new PINK!" *Snaps fingers*


CAUTION: May cause sugar rush if taken excessively. 



That was the first one I've ever made for our Christmas lunch last year. Not THAT smooth, got A FEW bubbles, but the bulges are from the hazelnuts. Topped with berries, very christmas-y, very nice indeed! Somehow it has a cocoa tint to it. Don't know where that came from. So that's a plus idea for you!

Those are the victims of sugar rush, hehe. With the latest one I made, topped with cherries. Not the best topping choice but still nice. It was creamier, less chocolaty, less sweet, friendlier for those who are not too keen with too much sweet on their tongues.

Notice I don't put them separately in small bowls like how they are supposed to because it's a hassle to make them into 30s! Plus everyone likes it that way. ;)

It doesn't taste the same EVERY TIME I make it. Its either creamier or chocolatier. But both are very nice options ey? 

TIP: To produce a nice mousse, fold in ingredients with a basket of smiles. No blues allowed! Trust me, it'll taste different.


ENJOY!!

Tell me how it goes!

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Accident



Guess what happened today in the morning.






MY HAIR GOT STUCK IN MY HAIR DRYER!


Yea, so some of them are out-of-place short. 


p/s: Passed all my papers with jumping colours!! : )

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Pictures tell a thousand words?



Was just going through my picture folder, from last year, and the previous year and the YTK-what-the-hell-was-I-thinking year!

I'm gonna take my thick face off and put SOME of them up.




Outing kat Ipoh camwhore kat dalam Jusco pastu tunjuk lubang hidung. I really don't have to cerita the obvious right? Dah lah rambut serabai, zaman everyone wants chemically straightened hair!





Masa BBQ birthday Acap kat matrix. Siapa tangkap ni memang celaka. I don't even know why my hair was like that, and my face?! Owh masa ni rambut dah half straight half kurang straight. So jadi bengkang-bengkok berliku-liku dan sangat tak disukai ramai.




To future tourists of London Bridge:
Kalau nak pergi masa winter, pakai tebal-tebal pastu pakai lah topi kalau tak jadi macam rambut atas tu serabai tak hengat dunia!! Dan disebabkan sejuk teramat, hidung nak jadi macam Rudolph's.




Fashion disaster! WHAT WAS I THINKING LA?? This was during Koln Trip Easter 2008.
From top: 
Sunglasses berjasa, CK since Form 1!! Haha sangat tak ikut trend aku nih.
Scarf and jacket okay. Sebab jacket tu mahal from Zara. (Baru jumpa belt dia. Punya kecoh kat semua orang I left it back home.)
FYI people, itu bukan skirt bersama jeans. Dia macam dress I wore inside, but why lah kan I wore it with jeans ku? (Note: Tu jeans kegemaran Evisu kuuu!)
And look at those shoes! Pakai socks putih plak tu. Who can blame ol' Primark. Haha




Ya, look at what 19 years have done to me. Owh btw, Motorola V8 tu sudah tidak digunakan. Guna 3 months je kut! So whoever wants it (ehem.. for a PRICE! In £££ please sebab kalau in RM I will rugi. Currency pounds sekarang £1=RM4.90. Ya betul. Sila datang visit saya di sini dan berlagak kaya.) Muaaahahahaha.
Ok stop. Ada la kawan saya seorang ni ingatkan botol-botol yang sungguh lawa itu adalah DILDO. sldkfjoawemflakmd;oifjakemflkm!!




**Tagged by Ayesha to print screen my desktop background. APPLAUSE**

To the whole wide world, THIS is what I look at every time I open my laptop. And every time it's not full of windows bersepah-ing. 

Ya, you can say it looks cheesy, but what the hell la kan? You will never understand what I've put myself in. (Not like it's a bad thing, no no.) Life is NEVER easy. After successfully jumping through an obstacle, never jump for joy. As you have lots more to go through. Am I right? Yes yes so let's stop crapping. Hehe

Does distance really make the heart grows fonder? No one in this world understands what and how I go through this, only The Almighty does. 

For those who doesn't know, to him, I'm the girl living 8 hours in his past. (And I've never been grateful enough for the unbelievable 4 years.)

Thus, the background! YEAY!


Last one last one.

.Camwhore Cat.



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