No more countdowns!
1) I've been busy going here and there spending my last weeks with friends here that I might not be able to meet again. Went to Alton Towers (even though it was pouring like nobody's business! We were crazy to still want to queue up for rides under the winter-ish rain. What to do... Dah bayar)
2) Looking for stuffs here and there to bring back home. My account is officially kering, for the first time in 2 years. That's the event of the year, definitely. (Barang rumah, pakaian, barang badan. Haha)
3) At the end of the day, I become too tired to update this spider-webbed blog. Mianhe!
But here I am now! Tired of endless packing. Like seriously, barang semua still nampak banyak in this small room of mine even though I 'packed' them nicely in cases already. What's wrong, barang?
AND I ONLY HAVE 2 DAYS LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now.
Reasons why I don't feel like going back:
1) Too many things to kemas. Not that much things to pack actually (maybe). The flow of packing hasn't come yet. :D
2) Don't think I'll be able to stand the 7 hours-7 hours flight back to KL. If I were to do it like last time, I sleep and by the time I wake up I hear "We are arriving KL" or something like that. And *DING* seat-belts' lights switched on. Yes, I survived in the flight without any food, thank you ***rate*. It wasn't even the fasting month. Should I be optimistic and say "That would feel good! I'll arrive KL in no time!" OR on the other hand say "But I paid for my food, dang it!" Hmmmmmm..
3) I would be only looking forward to work and work and work. No fun this summer, Imi. This year I get to 'escape' the long day puasa. What about next year? Puasa and work. What a good experience, right? Good good. I'm liking it.
I don't quite feel the welcoming vibe of going back unlike last year. Why is that so? I think I know why but I wouldn't want that to be the reason. I regret not being able to 'look forward' to see everyone back home. But maybe that would change once I set my first step? Maybe? Sigh, I hope.
A lot of thinking have been done. And to finally realise my own weakness(es), I feel ashamed. While I smile and laugh I actually hang my head down low. I feel like a coward, an idiot. But what has been done, is done. I cannot turn back time. These are the things that give you the so called 'life experience'? Sigh, I wish.
Why can't you find me on Facebook any longer:
1) Upon realising my weaknesses, Faceb**k gave me a lot of that. I take advantage of my friends and relatives on FB. I don't need to ask "How have you been doing?" because I see them update their status every other hour. Which only shows they're fine. Even if they're not, I know they'll be fine later with another status update.
2) I get upset even when I'm not supposed to. Your friends go here and there and you only get to know it through FB. THEN, you'll get pissed, upset, disappointed etc. and vice versa. Self-conflict over a small thing isn't really entertaining. And in the end, you'll not only hurt yourself, but others together with you. If you think I'm talking crap, that's fine. An opinion is just an opinion. :) Of course there's the good side of it, getting to get back in touch with long lost friends, and of course friends that you won't meet that much anymore. Obviously I realise that too. But my Class B weighing scale isn't stable.
3) I'll be back in FB sooner or later, so don't worry. ;)
Kesimpulannya, I do this because I love uollz! hahaha
So if you're in Malaysia, I'll see you soon hopefully. Everyone please pray for me a good journey back home, and dijauhi dari jangkitan kebabian. AMIN.
p/s: I make mistakes, I realise them, what happens after that?
3 paints:
good to read u'll be back on track.
have a safe journey eemie! ;)
besbooooooooooool
Sleepovers .
Holidays .
Girls day out .
I cant wait for you to come home , you know that .
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